in a lan shop

ok... blogging in a lan shop. Quite a fresh experience. There is always a frist time for everything.

I am really feeling the emotion of saddness kicking into me with this entry. I think it is caused by the fact that I've packed up all my stuffs. The realisation of the fact that I'm leaving Singapore behind is gradually materialising in me.

There are so many things to look forward to. At the same time, there are so many things to leave behind. This is exactly like mountaining climbing -- You have to give up your current safe spot in order to go higher and gain better views. What shall I say? This is life.

Just realised all these mixed emotions have moved me away from the category of "no-life". I am living life again. Thus, I shall be thankful and happy =)

Dosha test

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical. With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you In love: You are picky but passionate To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's" Your Dosha?

"take cool walks in the moonlight"? I think I've done that before... Quite a few times... covering quite a distance. Hahaz... but I like the descriptions, I hope to be like that =)

A picture speaks more than a thousand words

People have been complaining to me that my blog is too wordy. Ok...I shall attempt to start an entry with pictures.

Once upon a time I bought a watermelon for $2.70. I cut it up with a 10-inch knife and selected the most delicious piece.

I took a bite...

And another...

And another and another...

And I threw the skin away.
Is this a story with happy or sad ending? I can't decide...

Life of a no-life

Gave up translating blogs because it is too time-consuming and stifles inspiration. I shall think in one particular tongue at a time (=

I am back in Singapore for half a month and it has been an errrr…. really no-life experience.

No-life reason one: no Internet most of the time. I bet most of the present people cannot imagine life without Internet. Well, I’ve lived through that. Not so bad actually. You get to rest your eyes and mind quite a bit. Allowing the sense of remoteness sinking into you is a peaceful and comforting process.

No-life reason two: No one to talk to. Considering all my male friends in army and female friends either working or overseas, I am in complete isolation. I have some to live with that through the years, as this is really not the first, or second, time I am in solitude. I’ve found friends in my piano and guitar.

No-life reason three: I don’t eat out. It is the first time I ever resent school holiday. The food court, hawker centre, fast food etc. are FOREVER crowded. And I really mean crowded. The sight of all those youngsters swarming the area really makes me lose all my appetite. So I went to the market and bought a hell lot of vegetables and fruits home. That is when I developed the habit of eating in.

As you can see, I am a living example of a no-lifer. ~sigh~ Everyday I wake up, cook, eat, wash up, evening jog, cook, eat, sleep. This routine is getting mind numbing. Hahaz… need to read some books. All I am living for are the weekends when I can meet my friends.

Ok… another weekend coming up. Hooray!

期许的心

谢期许刚刚把女朋友气走了。

谢期许感慨地在约会的时候对陈心愉说：“如果你只能活一百天，那我只要活九十九天。这样我就永远不需要过任何一天没有你生活。”

心愉脸色变了变，依然以温柔，不过这次却带点严肃的语气说：“你不觉得自己很自私吗？只许自己无需过没有我的生活，却毫不理会我需要承受失去你的打击。”

期许被这句话怔住了，不禁觉得惭愧。心愉的头垂得很低，虽然轻声细语地道别，但她以刚然果断身法转身离去。七月初七的弯月将银色的微光轻轻地洒在她的秀发上，加上斜风温柔地挑拨她的背影，这一切毫不保留地陷进谢期许麻木的内心。爱情不都是自私的吗？不过爱情本身却是一切慷慨付出的根源。人生的矛盾，何去何从？

几天后，期许接到心愉的母亲电话，通知他心愉住院了。还没搞清楚状况的期许立即赶到医院。本来气氛已经很紧绷的医院顿时被这位闯进来的不速之客闹到崩溃的边缘。心愉的父母花了好一番功夫才把期许安顿下来，为他解释情况。原来心愉的心病已有三年的历史，这已是第五次复发了。心愉一直不希望期许知道。不过这次的病状已到了末期，医生诊断她若不尽快做心脏移植手术，数日无几。因此心愉父母才决定通知期许，容许他有与心愉相处的最后机会。

期许顿时热血沸腾，暗自转向医生要求将自己的心脏移植给心愉。江医生了解状况，迅速地办了一切医疗手续后，将合同递给期许。期许只要在合同上签了名，就可以以一命换一命。好伟大的情操呀！？？

不过期许突然想起七月初七心愉对他说的最后几句话，以及那凄凉的夜景又浮现心头。原来那天期许说的话并没有惹心愉生气。期许的话只不过说到了心愉的心坎里去，刺痛了她一直埋在心底深处的秘密。她爱他，但她知道她一定爱得比他少，因为她无法改变自己生命线的长度。她责备自己自私，又没有勇气把自己认知最美好的一切摆到现实面前。她那天的离别，是带着自责的心情，忍受着月光与凉风的嘲讽，沉重地步入黑夜。

期许拿着合同，走到加护病房外面，透过模糊的玻璃窗望着安详的心愉，宁听微弱的心电板跳动。心愉规律的心跳声，安抚期许忐忑的心情。期许闭上眼睛，默默地在加护病房外许下了承诺，一个不再自私的承诺。接着他答谢江医生一直以来对心愉的照顾，向心愉的父母请安后，转身离开了医院。期许远去的步伐一步比一步轻盈，直到听不见为止。正如心愉的心电图一样。

江医生转向值班的护士，露出揶揄的笑容道：“年轻人还是怕死。”

期许将接下来的一生奉献给心病的研究。二十年后的莫一日江医生翻开报纸看到了关于期许的报道，又露出揶揄的笑容向妻子道：“这小子这几十年想尽办法在赎罪。真可怜！何苦吗？”

但期许一点都不可怜。每当他看到病人康复的表情，病人家属的表情，就知道心愉很赞许他的表现。他没有辜负她。她也一样一点都没有辜负他。

如果现在活着的是一个有了一颗期许心脏的心愉，那他们可就永远互相深深地辜负了对方。你说不是吗？

冷漠是种罪？

甲道：“我们做事应该寻求对自己最有利的条件。只要能达到目的， 不管是投机取巧、欺压他人、蒙骗过关都无所谓，只要是事半功倍、以逸待劳的事就做就对了。因为唯我独尊才是真的。”

乙道：“不该为他人着想吗？我们不是都推崇舍己为人的精神吗？”

甲道：“你的武侠小说看得太多了。这世上哪有什么舍己为人可言？信任别人，就是毁灭自己。人不为己，天诛地灭。”

乙道：“如此般过一生，精神层次未免永远停留在肤浅的阶段、停滞不前？”

甲道：“别活在梦游仙境里了。你对别人好，一般的人也是不会感激的。这是因为现今社会里大家已体会到没有永远的朋友，只有永远的利益的道理。对人好，就是有所企图。没有人会信你舍己为人那一套。”

乙道：“有没有想过？如果有一个每一个人都相信对方，对人好的社会，那社会是多么文明、进步。花在提防别人、尔虞我诈的精神与时间都可以省了。”

甲道：“那是理想国，不可能存在。”

乙道：“我们不是应该尽最大的努力迈向理想国吗？”

甲道：“话是这样说没错。但那个理想国是完完全全不可能建立的。人是难以捉摸的动物。在你的理想国里，只要有一个人想徇私舞弊，一个人就好，整个理想国就会垮台。而这个自私的孬种就得以称霸。说老实话，我就要作这个自私的孬种。”

乙道：“大家都不想呢？”

甲道：“做梦！”

乙道：“怎么不可能呢？若有一天理想国建立，大家铁定会被如此蓬勃、先进的大环境感动。大家都有好处，为何破坏？”

甲道：“你这个‘大家都有好处，为何破坏？’的理论不成立。有个商人做过一个试验：在百货公司里卖笔记型电脑。商人广播说如果百货公司里的所有顾客都举起双手，他就一人送一台电脑。但如果有一个人不举，有举手的人就强迫以双倍价钱买下电脑。这个‘大家都有好处’的处境，只有三个人举手。他门成了大家的笑柄。人与人之间永远不可能完全信任的，大家一点会认为他人别有心机，各有意图。”

乙道：“这是因为理想国还没成立。一旦成立，人一生下来就只认识信任，哪会去想什么背叛。”

甲道：“你口口声声地赞理想国好，难道你认为现今社会很烂，急于需要改革吗？”

乙道：“当然！这个把自我为中心当出发点的社会，是个冷漠的国度，进步有限。”

甲道：“冷漠是种罪吗？”

乙道：“浪费时间是种罪吗？”

甲道：“是！但别人管不着。”

乙道：“跟冷漠完全一样。”

甲道：“所以这世上永远有人浪费时间，永远有人冷漠。”

乙道：“答对了！”

甲道：“那就要改。怎么改法？”

乙道：“要怎么样不浪费时间？”

甲道：“当然是多多利用时间。”

乙道：“那要怎么样不冷漠？”

甲道：“多多与人交流和信任？”

乙道：“又答对了。”

甲道：“听起来就很不容易了，更何况是去做。”

乙道：“做起来其实不难呀！”

刚说完心电图就不再跳动了，只发出单调的‘哔’声。甲眼神不定的望了躺在病床上的病人一眼， 对在旁边的乙说：“我还有急事在身。”甲匆匆转身走出医院，赶回公司上班，以赚取更多业绩。

乙失望的望着甲，这位拥有罕有的AB- 血型的人的背影，目睹他离开医院。乙叹了口气，为已失血过多而撒手归西的尸体合上白布条。

病人已经无药可救，甲还有希望吗？乙不禁怀疑。

雪白的布条，真干净。

taiwaneseoboe

Had been hacking into neighbour's internet line these few days. Hahaz...actually I've already cancelled my internet line in Singapore a couple of months ago.

Too bad... the neighbour found out yesterday. I was scolded/reprimended/catigated. They even threaten to call the police.

Ok... so no more internet for me. Unless I hack in again when I'm very sure they're not at home, or they are not using their internet, to be exact.

Remember there's such an advertisment: If your life were made into a movie, what would the viewers think? Although the advertisment is claiming that if you don't join army your movie will be dead boring but I'm quite sure mine wouldn't be, regardless of the fact that I'm not into army yet.

Thus, my theory of life: Nothing is dangerous until it is. As such, your life will be a blockbuster.

ok...enough crap, gotto cut the line.

a gorge

Imagine there was a gorge, which is a river cutting through a deep valley, and there were two villages on both sides of the bank. Humans are interactive beings so they built a straight wooden beam bridge to link the two banks together. Ever since, they started trading and making friends with the other side of the bank.

However, when the rainy season came, the river would gain velocity and erode the bottom of the banks away, causing the edges of the bands to crumble. The bridge crumbled into the river as well.

Every year after the rainy season, the villagers would build a longer beam bridge to link the banks, which were parting annually. It became a culture and their way of life.

Until a year came when a straight beam bridge is unable to be constructed because the bridge could not withstand its own weight and it snaps from the centre. Humans, being highly intellectual beings, explored the solutions and constructed an arch bridge instead, where the weight of the bridge falls evenly at either side of the bank.

Years passed until arch bridges were inadequate solutions. As the bridge gets bulky, the curvature of the body of bridge had to be increased. It had come to the point where arch bridges were ineffective for the villagers to pass through.

Humans exercised their powerful imaginative ability and constructed a suspension bridge.

One year, a smart person came up with the idea to build sturdy artificial riverbanks. As such, the erosion of river can be ceased and bridge constructions could be abandoned. The idea seemed plausible and people started the strenuous construction. Although it took months, the villagers were overjoyed when it was accomplished. Every rainy season since then, crumbling of the bridge did not trouble the villagers. The skills of bridge construction were slowly forgotten.

Decades passed when the artificial riverbanks finally gave way. The bridge collapsed. The villagers had forgotten how to get to the other side. They were separated, forever.

Knowledge is power. It may not be necessary at times, but it is always essential. Just like mathematics.

back

Am back in Singapore. Will be back till 1st July.

The trip back from airport was quite horrible. The plane landed at 11:15pm and I know there's always a human jam at that time because 3 planes (from Taiwan, Japan and Hong Kong), all Jetstar Asia, will land around the same time. Dunno why Jetstar Asia enjoys such unorthodox arrangement. So I dashed down the terminal from the very last last gate, carrying 30kg of stuffs, to be in front of the queue. I really want to catch the last mrt/bus home.

11:43pm. I made it to the last mrt train, taking me to Tenah Merah only. I brisk walked to bus stop there, crossing my fingers, hoping to catch the last bus.

11:47pm. I literally "caught" the last bus, which was actually driving away. I think the driver took pity on me. Then I discover I have negative amount of credit in my ez-link card. After fishing out my coins, I discover they are all Taiwan coins. Hahaha... so I went around the bus asking for change... for a ten-dollar note! Apparently, Singaporeans don't enjoy carrying coins very much.

12:02am. I was chased down the bus, so I took a taxi home after shaking off the idea to walk home.

joke (translation)

There were 3 friends flying on a plane. One of them held a banana skin, the other a rock and the last a grenade. They decided to compete who could toss the object they were holding out of the window and watch it fall to the ground. However, none succeeded since nothing was visible beyond the thick layer of cloud.

After the place landed, the three friends went for a walk. They saw a little girl crying on the floor and asked why. She replied crying, “a banana fell from the sky and I stepped and slipped over it accidentally. It’s really painful…”

The three friends moved on and found a little boy crying on the floor. They asked why is he crying. He replied crying, “a stone fell from the sky and hit my head, it is really painful…”

The three friends moved on and saw an old lady laughing her head off on the ground. The three friends asked curiously, “what’s so funny?” The old lady replied, hardly catching her breath, “I’m not very sure what happened! All I know is that I farted and my house blew up! Hahaha…”

笑话

有三个朋友坐在飞机上。一个人拿着香蕉皮，另一个拿着石头，最后一个拿着手榴弹。他们决定比比看谁可以把手中之物扔出窗外，并且看着它落到地上。三个人轮流试了，但都没有成功。因为东西过了云层后，就看不见了。

飞机降落后三个朋友便一同去逛街，结果在街上看见一个小女孩坐在地上哭。三位朋友一同问小女孩怎么在哭，她哭道：“不知怎么突然有个香蕉从天空掉下来，我不小心踏到结果滑了一跤，现在好痛呀。。。呜呜。。。”

三个朋友继续走，结果碰到了一个小男孩坐在地上哭。三位朋友一同问小男孩怎么在哭，他哭道：“有一个石头从空而降，打到我的头，现在好痛呀。。。呜呜。。。”

三个朋友继续往前走，结果看到一个老太婆趴在地上狂笑。三位朋友不约而同奇道：“有什么是那末好笑？”老太婆上气不接下气地笑道：“我也不清楚发生了什么事。哈哈哈！我只不过放了一个屁结果我的房子就砸掉了。哈哈哈哈哈！”